When I woke up today, the first thing that came to my mind was, OH MY WORLD! I SURVIVED THROUGH 2010. The second thing that I realized was the fact that I’ve spent the last six months, since Enlistment, cursing the living daylight out of this country. In the military, I see the first attempt as an experience, and subsequent attempts as unnecessary hardship and torture to my otherwise innocent mind and body.

Anyway, this year has been one hell of a year. I mean, I graduated with a diploma, I turned 21 years old, I was enlisted for military service, I FIRED REAL WEAPONS LIKE THE MATADOR. As much as there are new people in my life, there are people who have changed. Growing up, in itself, is an excruciating and challenging task that is undertaken subconsciously.

For my entire life, I see myself as person who treasures memories so much that nostalgia occurs everyday. It is the foremost reason I am unable to fully propel and skyrocket myself higher than I already am. I am not always forthcoming about going forward, because that would mean I will lose what I have had. I’m bad with change.

I look back at stolen flowers, and wonder what would and could have become of them.

I look back at missing rainbows, and wonder if I’ve had taken a second glance of them.

The truth is; we live in a world we can’t stop and pause, or rewind for that matter. This year, I hope to see myself change — for the better. The rest of the world moves forward. People sow after stolen flowers, travel in pursue of their missing rainbows, and thank God everyday for keeping safe their kin and kith.

There is very little time left, as compared to what we perceive.

If not now, when? If not me, who?

Forward.